Monday, December 29, 2008
New Avenue
In my first blog, I mentioned that I will be discussing the latest in computers and information technology. But I decided that I'll leave that part to my boyfriend's blog. He's the expert one. I'll leave all the techie side to him. Please visit it here!
Wish list !
Haha!
It'll be my first time to publicly enumerate all my wishes for the year 2009! Here it goes..
5. A visit to the dentist.
4. A new cellphone.
3. New Laptop
2. Ipod ( any of these will do hehehe! - nano, shuffle, video, touch)
1. A Wallet - (hmmm! i think i can buy this later)
Hay! I need help!!! Support!
It'll be my first time to publicly enumerate all my wishes for the year 2009! Here it goes..
5. A visit to the dentist.
4. A new cellphone.
3. New Laptop
2. Ipod ( any of these will do hehehe! - nano, shuffle, video, touch)
1. A Wallet - (hmmm! i think i can buy this later)
Hay! I need help!!! Support!
The Awakening by Sonny Caroll
Like to share these article, a timely assessment before we say good bye to year 2008.>>
The Awakening
By Sonny Carroll
A time comes in your life when you finally get it...
When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you
stop dead in your tracks and somewhere, the voice
inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying, or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes, you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening...
You realize that it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world, there aren’t always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ... and that’s OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process, a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn’t do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it’s not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process, a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. You begin to sift through all the junk you’ve been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process, you learn to go with your instincts.
You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive and that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don’t know everything; it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.
You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love; and you learn that you don’t have the right to demand love on your terms, just to make you happy.
You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you “stack up.”
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right, to want things and to ask for the things that you want and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.
You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won’t settle for less. You allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his touch and in the process, you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. Just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul; so you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that for the most part in life, you get what you believe you deserve and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen, is different from working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.
You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time; FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear, is to give away the right to live life on your terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions, you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn’t punishing you or failing to answer your prayers; it’s just life happening.
You learn to deal with evil in its most primal state; the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted; things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself, by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind, and you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.
The Awakening
By Sonny Carroll
A time comes in your life when you finally get it...
When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you
stop dead in your tracks and somewhere, the voice
inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying, or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes, you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening...
You realize that it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world, there aren’t always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ... and that’s OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process, a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn’t do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it’s not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process, a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. You begin to sift through all the junk you’ve been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process, you learn to go with your instincts.
You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive and that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don’t know everything; it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.
You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love; and you learn that you don’t have the right to demand love on your terms, just to make you happy.
You learn that alone does not mean lonely. You look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you “stack up.”
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right, to want things and to ask for the things that you want and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.
You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won’t settle for less. You allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his touch and in the process, you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. Just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul; so you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that for the most part in life, you get what you believe you deserve and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen, is different from working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.
You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time; FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear, is to give away the right to live life on your terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions, you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn’t punishing you or failing to answer your prayers; it’s just life happening.
You learn to deal with evil in its most primal state; the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted; things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself, by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind, and you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Crave
Early this evening right after work at Makati, I head straight to Crossing. I usually pass by at a mall near MRT and would take a window shopping before I go home.
I chance upon this tiangge stall whose selling blouses that you can wear at office. So I checked out the designs and price. I became interested to buy because these are the blouses that I like and the designs are appropriate in a corporate setting plus the quality is excellent.
I started to ask how much, and because I’m already eyeing a nice blouse, I started to haggle.
My asking price is not amenable to them. So as one of my “act” in every haggling situation, I started to move away from the stall as if I’m no longer interested to what they’re offering. But alas! They caved in!
I got my violet blouse to my satisfaction.
Here’s the problem, whenever I have this cheap finds, I can’t help myself but to go back again.
That someone’s telling me that I should come again, find another one, and buy it.
It’ll haunt me unless I do something. That is to visit again.
I think every woman can relate to this kind of situation. The dominant feeling of sweet success in finding a good blouse is already an accomplishment.
I really need to go back to that store, ASAP!
I chance upon this tiangge stall whose selling blouses that you can wear at office. So I checked out the designs and price. I became interested to buy because these are the blouses that I like and the designs are appropriate in a corporate setting plus the quality is excellent.
I started to ask how much, and because I’m already eyeing a nice blouse, I started to haggle.
My asking price is not amenable to them. So as one of my “act” in every haggling situation, I started to move away from the stall as if I’m no longer interested to what they’re offering. But alas! They caved in!
I got my violet blouse to my satisfaction.
Here’s the problem, whenever I have this cheap finds, I can’t help myself but to go back again.
That someone’s telling me that I should come again, find another one, and buy it.
It’ll haunt me unless I do something. That is to visit again.
I think every woman can relate to this kind of situation. The dominant feeling of sweet success in finding a good blouse is already an accomplishment.
I really need to go back to that store, ASAP!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Manila Bay at its finest
These pictures were taken at the top of a high-rise condominium along Roxas Boulevard. near Coastal area. I had the urgency of taking these pictures due to breath taking view unfolding in front of me. A soothing feeling crept over me as I took the result of these pictures.
Manila Bay is serene and calm. Three elements of earth united harmoniously despite a tempest seething somewhere.
Even though the sun hide beneath the clouds, you know that despite the absence, the bay will never fail to give you one of the greatest show on earth.
Sunset at Manila Bay is truly one of a kind; it is full of compassion and dramatic emotion. It gives you a certain kind of feeling of warmth, hope and love.
It’s as if no matter what time of the day, it invites you every moment to take a minute and savor the beauty it serves.
I’m sure each one of us has its own interpretations and feelings that slip in our mind whenever we see this kind of masterpiece.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Evolution
Its been awhile since I last scribbled my pen in a paper and share/expose my thoughts, feelings ( on a daily basis) towards situation, emotion and other conditions that affect me as a person. As far as I can remember the first time I started a real diary was when I was in second year high school wherein we are required to have a diary and write all the things that happened and discussed on that particular subject. Included in the diary are your thoughts and analysis, and that diary should show creativeness like some artwork and colorful designs.
I hate it.
Hate the artwork side. I am not the person who has some flair in making beautiful and flamboyant drawings.
Double the hate - when your teacher graded your performance based on your artwork in diary.
College days were crammed with lots of projects, thesis, exams, etc. I decided that I can have a diary but not with the writings of love, emotion, feelings, thoughts, instead I filled it with schedules of favorite TV programs, quotations, deadlines of assignments/projects, date of exams and some highlights of what happened that day. The diary itself is a compact notebook with 3" x 2 1/ 2” size. It is small yet it is packed of information I needed to keep me sane.
Of course, no artworks included.
According to a prominent talk show host in America, she suggested that we should have a journal and write at least 5 things/situations that make us thankful for everyday. I think this technique tells us that when you read it a year from now, you will realize you are indeed a blessed person. It successfully shows how you have grown from what you have been.
When I read my diary I made when I was in high school I would laugh at myself for the silliness I have written. But at the back of my mind, these writings have made me a better person. These diaries served as evidence of what you have accomplished in life. It is our guidance in all our endeavors. Journals shaped and evolved us.
In this blog, I’d like to share my thoughts about my work, books that I read, latest in computer and information technology and just about the everyday life.
But this time I’ll try to put some artwork.
I hate it.
Hate the artwork side. I am not the person who has some flair in making beautiful and flamboyant drawings.
Double the hate - when your teacher graded your performance based on your artwork in diary.
College days were crammed with lots of projects, thesis, exams, etc. I decided that I can have a diary but not with the writings of love, emotion, feelings, thoughts, instead I filled it with schedules of favorite TV programs, quotations, deadlines of assignments/projects, date of exams and some highlights of what happened that day. The diary itself is a compact notebook with 3" x 2 1/ 2” size. It is small yet it is packed of information I needed to keep me sane.
Of course, no artworks included.
According to a prominent talk show host in America, she suggested that we should have a journal and write at least 5 things/situations that make us thankful for everyday. I think this technique tells us that when you read it a year from now, you will realize you are indeed a blessed person. It successfully shows how you have grown from what you have been.
When I read my diary I made when I was in high school I would laugh at myself for the silliness I have written. But at the back of my mind, these writings have made me a better person. These diaries served as evidence of what you have accomplished in life. It is our guidance in all our endeavors. Journals shaped and evolved us.
In this blog, I’d like to share my thoughts about my work, books that I read, latest in computer and information technology and just about the everyday life.
But this time I’ll try to put some artwork.
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